What could you do if you were no longer anxious, worried, or angry?
What do believe is keeping you from moving forward?
What misguided decisions have you made due to false beliefs?
Carrie took the course, Promised Land Living (PLL). Here is her amazing testimony of what she learned and how uncovering the lie(s) she had been absorbing for over 4 decades changed her life. Click the Coaching tab above and go to Promised Land Living for information regarding the January 2022 course.
Why Spiritual Formation Coaching?
I am passionate about coaching you; the Christian woman who is questioning her faith, feels forsaken by God, believes she is not enough and that God is not enough for her or her problems. Well, I have walked in your shoes. There was a season in my life when it was hard to take a deep breath or even want to live. My life seemed hopeless due to loss, pain, and failure. Where was the God that I believed in and trusted? Why did he remain silent when I was crying out for help?
I lived my entire life believing that I was not enough. Rejection was all I could see. And since I believed that doing more and being more would solve this problem, I strived and strived, but always came up empty. Most importantly, it was my opinion that God was not enough either, so he needed my help. I believed that God was not totally trustworthy, so I had to maintain some control. Total surrender to him was not an option. Is my story resonating with you?
One day I found myself lying face down on my apartment floor crying out to God and asking "What's happening? Why me? How can you (God) love me and allow this pain? How can I trust you (God) if I don't think you really love me?"
I was in a very dark place, a deep pit, with regards to my faith in Christ. This abyss of darkness caused my view of God to become extremely distorted and invalid. Maybe you, too, are in a dark place with similar questions and wondering if God hears your cry for help.
In the midst of my suffering, I had to make a choice and so do you. I could remain stuck in the darkness of my soul or I could face my false self with all my secrets, wounds, insecurities, failures, and shame. In order for God to transform me, it took perseverance, courage, and a deep desire for healing. But, that's not all. It also required a willingness to see the truth about what I had been believing about myself and God. Awareness of who I had become was extremely difficult, convicting, and sickening. I cannot tell you how ashamed I was at how I had "shown up as a confessing Christian, not a practicing Christian."
When the truth was finally brought out in the light and the lies were uncovered, I was given a critical choice. Was I going to accept what God was showing me or contend with God? Cooperate or contend? Deciding not to accept the truth would have left me stuck in my pain and darkness. My healing and transformation took time and it required forgiveness of others and myself.
My desire is to come along beside you as you go through the invaluable process of restoration and transformation. Like me, you will have to face your fears, doubts, shame, and self-sufficiency. Getting past this dark season of your soul will require a strong commitment to heal and move forward as well as courage, honesty, and a strong desire for restoration in your relationship with God.
Kenneth Boa, in Conformed To His Image, said that "Our image of God shapes our spiritual direction and future." David Jeremiah believes "One of the reasons we don’t love God and trust Him as much as we should is because we don’t know Him as well as we ought."
Read about my crisis of faith and see if it resonates with you.